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littletown This entry is in list form because coherent thoughts, I don't have them.
- Watched the first two episodes of Doctor Who on Netflix last night! I really liked it. :D I've been hearing a lot of good things about it for years, but I never got around to check it out till now. I think the Doctor is adorable.
- I went for a quick run last night, but then I had a major craving and ate a Big Mac. OOPS AT ME AGAIN. I wish I could control my appetite, but I find it so hard. T_T I get so grumpy when I'm hungry, and I end up whining at everyone. Don't fuck with my food, guys. On the bright side, I woke up this morning and I wasn't bloated at all. So there's that. Gonna run again later hopefully, and this time no more binging!
- Why is writing smut so difficult? I always feel like someone's looking over my shoulder when I write erotic stuff and I get so embarrassed. It's not like I have no idea how sex works. I just don't know how to make it sound good and not unintentionally hilarious.
- Today I learned that my optimal time for writing is after dinner, around 6pm. I'm well-fed, chores are done, and husband's still at work so he's not pestering me about what I'm writing and why I won't let him read it (because smut and angst and OTP shipping inappropriate for a married woman).
- No but really, I hang out with his older siblings and they're so normal with their dogs and sports and being ~healthy~ and how video games are sooo unproductive and how this one self-help book is a must-read. Idk I like fandom and fanfics and immersing myself in RPGs and I don't fit in. ;_;
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Date: 2013-01-29 04:00 am (UTC)Also, I totally hear you on not fitting in with non-fannish types - and the difficulty of writing anything above an R-rating. I've largely given up trying because it's so damn difficult...
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Date: 2013-01-29 06:08 am (UTC)I've kinda accepted the fact that only a few people in real life will really "get" me. My best friend is also into fandom (albeit different ones lately), so she
understands when I start ranting about fic and whatnot. I'm not even sure if I want people irl to know about my fandom activities anyway. I mean, I write about sex sometimes. XD
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Date: 2013-02-02 03:31 pm (UTC)As for writing smut, I find it only semi-hard to write. I write it dirty, but a lot of time I want to write it mellow with actual lovemaking/gooey feelings and can't. I just don't know how, I think :(
I get it with the siblings, I do.
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Date: 2013-02-02 11:17 pm (UTC)It's so nice when you figure out your best writing time! Mine is late at night, but if I'm in a cafe, then it's the time just after lunch and just before the late afternoon/evening dinner rush.
Aw, your husband sounds adorable :)
Who wants to be normal? And let me tell you something, anyone who presents themselves as 'normal' has got their own seriously kinky/bizarre/weird stuff going on in secret. You are authentic. You don't play games and present yourself as you are. I'd say they don't fit in with you!
Confession: I have found some self-help books to be useful. But there are some really scary people in the self-help industry. It's also very easy to fall into the trap of constantly buying books and going to seminars etc to try and fill the void in your life/get someone to 'fix' things for you. I'm really grateful I didn't have the money to buy more than a few books.
This is an excellent resource on cults and self-help gurus, etc - http://www.rickross.com/ Someone called Byron Katie was recommended to me, for example, and I'm so glad I looked her up first because she's vile.
I can go on about this subject for a while so I'll stop. But basically, if you want to refute your in-laws' claims about a book/guru, that site is a great starting point.